Feeling...........blah

Well i suppose i shall do another update. The last few weeks have been hard for me. I've been kinda run down i guess. Just some things that have been bothering me at work and with friends. I wish i knew who my true friends are. Its hard to tell.

I'm not feeling very connected with the young adult group at church. I mean, my sister and i and a few others are planning to visit a friend in Philly. I told KP that i have off weekends now and that i'm able to go this time. She never said a thing to me. i had a feeling that she was ignoring me for some odd reason. So I left and went home. last night after i left Friendlys before i sat down, i was driving home and just cried because my sister told me to go home and thats when i did, just because i got mad at her for giving me this attitude after Saturate was done.

Work has been tough to get through lately. At Masonic Village, we're all about being a team player, in other words we try to help out others when they need it. So i had everything done and i was just pretty much standing around, i decided to go up to the line to expoe. Needless to say the servers supervisor came through the door and was like "your not exposing tonight are?" she said it in such a serious tone and i threw out my gloves and let her do it. Then she goes and tells my two supervisors and i was called into the office. Enough of that!!!

Tonight was alright then it got better at the end of the night. I saw my cabin girls from Avalanche and they gave a huge hug and asked me if i missed them and i said OF COURSE!!! Their the milton hershey girls and i love them all so much!! Then Chad said something that made me smile and was like WOW they do really appreicate me!! Tonight before i left the church Chad said to me(not the exact words that he said) "Ash, im so glad that your here and helping out with the small things that i dont have time to do. It helps me out so much and you wouldn't know it. Seriously i really do love having you here." I had to set up the tech crew dinner tonight since Joyce wasnt there and i had to make sure they had food coming and such. I really love serving with the youth staff and doing pretty much whatever they want me too and never complain about it. What Chad said was just what i needed to hear today. i was having a bad day and needed to hear something like that.

A few highlights of the week are....
-i got a new cell phone and im lovin' it. I took a picture of two milton hershey girls that were in my cabin.

-the little bit of snow that we got and thats on the way!!! i so need to wash my car though. its so gross to look at!!!

-I cant wait for Spring to come!!! warm weather, driving with the windows down, blairing my music, and no jackets!!!

-writing my support letters for California! okay thats not a highlight. lol

-playing duck-duck-goosewednesday night after high school and middle school were done, only about 8 of us were playing. we were standing in a circle and Jen goes around saying duck-duck-goose.

-playing in the air band wednesday night around 8:15pm because we had nothing to do. Jen, ashleigh, and i want to enter American Idol and play our air band for them and sing off key!!! i so wanna do that though!!!

-a week till i turn 21!!! im so excited, okay not really, its just another year older, another year closer to retirement, and another year gone by.




I've been hearing stuff about Lent, i'm so confused about it. the first time that i've heard about Lent was a year ago but i never understood it. so confused!!