Unloved

NEED I EXPLAIN MORE?!

I DON'T FEEL LIKE TYPING ANYMORE, ITS BEEN A TOUGH DAY/WEEK.

MAYBE I'LL TYPE MORE TOMORROW.




BUT I DO HAVE A GUARDIAN ANGEL TOHUGH, MY MOM.

Bad News

Last night after i left Kreiders Resturant with a few people from church i was heading into Manheim when i saw an ambulance at a relatives house. I was just thinking that someone i know that lives there wasn't doing great. This was around 930pm and 945pm. I wake up this morning and get ready for church and my grandma comes in my room to tell me that John wasn't doing to good last night and his wife went outside because he was sitting on the back porch and she went to sit with him and to hold him up and the next thing you know he dies in her arms. My grandma told me that she's taking it pretty well because they were talking about death i guess for the last few months because they were old and everthing.

He was such a great guy and I know that I'll miss him. I remember when he and his wife would be sitting outside at the cementary right behind their house and my dad and my sisters would go up to my mom's grave and we would drive past them and then we would stop and talk to them. They were great people. They knew my mom and they helped with creating my mom's grave stone and did a great job!

I'm planning on going to the funeral on wednesday, although i work on wednesday I'm pretty sure that i can get off because its a family memeber that passed and i'll get 2 days off and get paid for it. Hopefully, I'll be able to go to the funeral.

I thought it was going to be a relaxing 4 days off.



R.I.P
John B. Stehman
You will be missed dearly!!

So sore!!

Big Ben is back!!!

Have you ever worked so much that your entire body is aching?? I have! If I'm sitting down i feel like i can't get up or I'm afraid to get up because my legs might give out on me. IDK. My body aches so much right now and I don't have off work till Saturday. You know what I'm gonna do on that day, sleep in till 10am probably. I don't know if thats called sleeping in or not, but whatever, for me thats sleeping in. lol. Its a struggle for me to get up every morning because I'm working 12 days in a row. I've also been feeling kinda sick lately. I need to rest.

So last night a bunch of people from church went to a friends house to play capture the flag in the dark outside. It was loads of fun but muggy!! My team won because i was on their team, lol jk, Jason R. grabbed the wrong cone(flag) and decided to let the teams look for the other teams cone(flag) and my team found the opposing teams cone(flag) first. lol it was a great night and i needed that after a rough week at work. I was told that we did an average of 978 plates of shrimp cocktail for the week and thats about 3,000 shrimp!!

My hand that i had surgery on isn't feeling so hot right now. After I'm done chopping something at work my wrist and hand feels stiff. It hurts though needless to say.

I found out that my cousin's one friend from high school hung himself from a tree and his body was hanging there for a week!! Gross. I was told that he did it because all of his friends either moved or went off to college. This was recently too. When i was in high school i saw the kid around the building. He graduated in 2005.

Today at work these two residents were talking about the E. coli found in spinach. The one lady told another lady that she shouldn't eat any green lettece or romaine because stores are talking that off the shelfs as well, truth is their not. Its ok to eat salad mix and romaine but you can't eat spinach. I was trying to tell them that but i figured it wasn't doing any good and i didnt want to argue with an elderly person, I've learned that lesson. lol My supervisor said that we might not be using spinach for a while because there are cases of E. coli here in PA. Its kinda scary if you think about it.

Work, Work, Work, some more WORK

Pretty much every day since monday or tuesday I've waken up to the smell of COW MANURE!! I leave my window open all the time because i like the fresh air in my room but not cow manure. Thats the one smell i don't like about Lancaster county. Sometimes i feel like i smell but i smell my clothes and its not me, what a relief!

Work is a drag, I'm just frustrated with my work schedule he it is::
Monday 9-11: 9am-5pm
Tuesday 9-12: 9am-6:30pm
Wednesday 9-13: 9am-5pm
Thursday 9-14: 9am-?
Friday 9-15: 9am-?
Saturday 9-16: 9am-?
Sunday 9-17: 6:30am-2:30pm
Monday 9-18: 9am-5pm?
Tuesday 9-19: 9am-5pm?
Wednesday 9-20: 9am-5pm?
Thursday 9-21: 9am-5pm?
Friday 9-22: 9am-5pm?
Saturday 9-23: OFF
Sunday 9-24: OFF
Monday 9-25: OFF
Tuesday 9-26: OFF

Can you count how many days i work in a row??? YUP YOU COUNTED RIGHT, 12 DAYS!! doesn't get any better than that, does it??? I look at it as more money that i can save for my trip to California with andrew burkahrt in december, hopefully i'll have enough money to go, if not I'm gonna be pretty upset not seeing my awesome friends in El Centro. I just pray and hope that i have enough for the plane ticket.

I haven't been feeling well this week maybe its because i just have time to rest, i'm always on the go or thinking about the next day on how well its going to go and therefore i cant sleep at night. I hate not being able to sleep at night, i need my sleep so i can feel energized and ready to go in the morning.

I'm gonna try to read my Bible every night because thats the only time i have to read without feeling rushed around.

more later, gtg to bed

frustrated, stressed, DONE BLOGGING!!

I'm so exhausted from work. I'm so frustrated and stressed also because this week i was getting yelled at for something i didnt even do and pretty much my job is on the line as of right now. I havent finished my 10 day stretch yet, i will on wednesday because i have off on thursday and then work friday and then have off on sat and sun. i have a 12 day stretch coming up in a week and I'm not ready for that.

Todays Monday and i had to be at work at 7am and left at 3pm. I came home and pretty much crashed as soon as i walked in my room and just got up at 7:45pm. I was exhausted!!!

I've got nothing esle to type on here, so I guess I'm done blogging for a little while until things gte better for me.

If you think about it just be praying for me, I've been struggling with life issues right now. thanks

peace