Thursday, August 23, 2007

EMOTIONALLY DRAINED!!!!!!!!!

I just feel so emotionally drained right now. The family that I'm living with are having some marriage problems. Jenn tells me one thing then Denny tells me another thing and i don't know what to believe!! I'm soo frustrated right now. I called my grandma bc her and I are close, I can talk to her about anything. So i decided to call her bc i just needed someone to talk to tonight and i was talking to her as i was crying. I feel like everything is my fault, at least Denny thinks it is. Sometimes i wonder if God is with me, but I know that He is with me all the time, through thick and thin, good and bad. But its just SOO hard to believe that sometimes. I absolutely LOVE the family and the kids!!! I was with the 3 kids on their first day of school on Wednesday and i take Brock to football practice and games, I'm there when they get off the bus EVERYDAY!!!

Denny has it MADE!! Jenn gets up at 330am everyday to pack his lunch, to lay out his clothes for work, she makes dinner everyday and he just comes home and eats then goes to bed, EVERYDAY!!!!




I just don't know what to do anymore! I JUST GOTTA TRUST GOD ON THIS PART WITH THE PARENTS!!!

I'M JUST GLAD THAT I HAVE A GRANDMA THAT I CAN CALL AND SHE'LL LISTEN, BE THERE WHEN I NEED HER AND THAT'S ALL I WANT!!!!! I'M JUST GONNA GO CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP!!!!! I'M EXHAUSTED!!


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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Kinda Bummed..........

well Dan called me this morning with some not so good news about her dog, Samson, and when she told me what happened to him Sunday night. He wasn't breathing too well and hasn't been eating and has declined fast. I'm so bummed that i might be able to see him when i come home on Thursday or Friday for the weekend. I was totally planning on seeing him and this past weekend i was trying to fit it in my schedule to see him before I left to come back to Ohio and i never did!!! Now i feel bad and really wished that i saw him!!

I finally figured out what was wrong with my computer. I just have to get a video card for it and hopefully it'll be up and running next week!!

I've been reading a book called The Sacred Romance, its a very good book but I don't have a lot of time to read besides the evening bc the kids keep interrupting me every 5 minutes bc they wanna be with me.

Oh yea, I'm getting a QUEEN SIZED WATER BED!!!! I'm so excited for that, I so can't wait for it bc I've been sleeping on the floor for about 2 weeks or so and I slept on Des' mattress, which by the way is a spring mattress and i could feel the springs jabbing into me while i slept. Then I'd get up and could barely sit down bc my back would be killing me. I had enough of that mattress and that's when i decided to sleep on the floor.

Plus Friday evening we had a tornado warning/watch. I have a few pictures of the sky but i have to wait to download them onto my computer. I was little, i mean REALLY freaked out. They had the warning sound go off at the fire department, which is right down the road from the house.



I'm gonna miss SAMSON!!! All the memories from watching him, I can't bare to see him leave at such a young age, I mean he's like 3 years old!!


Friday, August 10, 2007

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!

Well i figured out my problem to publishing a post. I'm such a genius!!! lol right.

Anyways, i am in PA for the weekend. Its nice to be back bc i know the area, lol. I can't say its good to be home, bc i dont live here, but its my "home" away from home.

Ohio has been good. I met this one guy too!!! I think i met him my 1st week out there.

I got left Ohio at 8pm yesterday and got here at 330am this morning. As soon as i got home i got my pillow and blanket and passed out on the floor. I was BEAT!!!

I really dont feel like posting right now bc I'm brain dead!!!! I'll post some day soon.