Whats going on...

Have you ever woken up during the night and had a hard time trying to fall back to sleep? I HAVE!!
Last night(Saturday) I went to bed around 10:30pm, thats my usual time), so around 1:30am(Sunday) i wake up tossing and turning for a half hour, so now its 2:00am(Sunday) and i get up to get a glass of water and take NyQuil, it takes a little while to work and then I'm out. I get up around 7:20am(Sunday) to get a shower and get ready for church. I get to church and for some reason I just don't feel like being there. I sit through the main service, which by the way Jase great job!, barely keeping my eyes open for 5 minutes. I'm trying so hard to stay awake, i manage to stay awake the entire time. I head over to the youth wing, Abby comes up to me and starts talking to me, she said that i looked tired and i was. I told her that i haven't been sleeping well since i got home from CALI and she told me that if it doesn't get better than i have to call my doctor. I left Jcrew early to come to get some rest and i did. I just didn't feel like being at church this morning.

So as of late, I haven't been sleeping well ever since I got back from CALI and its starting to take a toll on me. Its been like 2 weeks since i returned home. I just want to be able to sleep through the night and not wake up in the middle of the night.

I've been emotionally drained from staying home all the time since i can't work yet. I'm getting kinda bummed and getting anxious to get back to work in a few weeks, hopefully. It stinks sitting at home with nothing to do besides work outside (I don't mind that), read, talk to people on AIM, read some more, take a walk, and clean my car. Thats gets pretty boring after a while. I'm the one that has to keeping doing something or i get frustrated/irriated.

Atleast I'll have something to look forward to in a couple of weeks and that is watching Samson and Rocky for a week. I'm excited!

I cleaned my room all day on Saturday and looked through papers, threw some out and kept some. I also dusted and reorganized some things that needed reorganizing.

plans for Monday:
~wash my car
~read a book
~hangout with friends
~coffee/meeting with Pearl at Brick House in Manheim
~home to read some more
~dinner
~free for the evening

well i'm going to go now and try, keyword TRY, to fall asleep since it is almost midnight and I'm not even tired, maybe I am, I don't know!!

Since being home

Well i've been home for a little while now. I haven't done too much but relax and enjoy my time off, but i've gotten bored really quick.

This evening(sunday) I went with mark, dawn, and lexi, all are from Jcrew, so we to the movies in etown. We saw Monster House and it was a funny movie for younger kids. I liked it and i thought it would be a great time to connect with them. I had a great time hanging out with them.

Dan and i are looking at an apartment tomorrow(monday) morning in manheim and such.

I've been kinda slacking in reading the Psalms. I'm way behind since leaving for CALI because we never had time to have quiet time. I still want to read the Psalms and whatnot.

I wish i knew what my purpose in life is. I mean most people know what there going to do their entire lives, but me on the other hand have no idea what I'm supposed to do in life. I'm thinking about missions or something. I love to help others and travel to different places. I guess i gotta keep praying.

"The heart of the giver makes the gift dear and precious." Martin Luther

Look up Jer. 29:11, thats my favorite verse!

this is one place that we got to see and take our group photo here. Its the old courthouse in Mexicali, Mexico.

So its been taking me a day or so to get into the swing of things since i've been home. I have a weird sleeping pattern, such as Sunday, I got up late for church then went out with my sister, then came home to take a nap and i slept till 830 or 9pm. I had a hard time sleeping after that. I'm glad to be home but yet I'm not because in El Centro I had things to do and now that I'm home i have nothing to do.

So i guess the next few weeks I'll probably clean my room, mow grass, wash my car, and hang out at home being bored out of my mind!

I've been reading quite a bit as well, since being away and getting home. I've also thought about life in general. While i was in the Dallas/Fort Worth airport my dad called me, i was totally shocked that he called me. I kinda felt better since he called me and before he hung up he said "I love ya." and i actually said it back to him. Its been a long time since i said that to him, its been a long time since i talked to him also.

Ever since i got my stitches out my hand has been killing me! But i'll survive. I've also been on one-handed use right now because my strength in my right hand is weak. I can't even open a water bottle! thats sad. I'm just ready to get back to work!!

JER. 29:11

Emotional Goodbyes!!

I was going to post bofore i left CA but i had a chance to, so here is my update::

My time here in El Centro, CA is up. The trip went so fast, where did all of the time go. i guess its bc we were having so much fun with hanging out with the kids at VBS and eating some awesome mexician food. I loved Isaac, his brother, Alfredo, Robert, Marlina, Karina, Monste, Jorge, and so many more people. I'm gonna miss them all. We pretty much said our goodbyes tonight at the church bc they all brought food and had a party for us. We had tamollies(spelling)and they were the best!!

We're spending a day in san diego on wednesday and we're heading to the beach for the day and staying in a hotel for thhoe night then we're heading to the airport bc the

It was the hardest goodbyes ever. I sat outside after we ate food just to have some time to myself then we had to get together as a large group and said goodbye to each other, as soon as we stood up i started to cry. i hate saying goodbye to people even though i only knew them for a year. i know its gonna be a rough time coming home on thursday.

Our flight was delayed twice in Chicago,once because the flight was running late or something then the second time was because the plane had a maintance problem!! We stayed in the airport for maybe 3 1/2 hours or so, i lost track at 2 hours!

Leaving for cali...

Well I'm typing one handed right now, you should try it and see how long it takes you type an entire blog entry!! haha its kind of tough.

tomorrow I'm leaving for CALI at 2AM!! I'm excited bc I'm doing an all-nighter!! I'll defiantly update throughout the week and a half bc i now have a laptop. i checked the weather last night and its suppose to be 109 degrees F, it might get hotter throughout the week. I'm still gonna read through the Psalms and possibly post some of my thoughts about that also. i wont be back till the 13th!! So please pray for the team and the leaders that are going on the trip for safety and to form relationships with the kids.

i had my surgery on Thursday and it went well. i was so nervous that my blood pressure was 100something over 99, so needless to say i was nervous!! i don't remember much of it besides the surgery room was really cold! Stayed in recovery for 10 minutes then went home and now I'm on painkillers and I'm glad that he gave me them.

it hasn't been a week yet and I'm bored already!! lol


CALI HERE I COME!! BUT I'M GONNA MISS UE CAMP :( KINDA STINKS THAT THEY OVERLAP EACH OTHER!!

this took way too long for me to type. I'm done for now.