Whats going on...

Have you ever woken up during the night and had a hard time trying to fall back to sleep? I HAVE!!
Last night(Saturday) I went to bed around 10:30pm, thats my usual time), so around 1:30am(Sunday) i wake up tossing and turning for a half hour, so now its 2:00am(Sunday) and i get up to get a glass of water and take NyQuil, it takes a little while to work and then I'm out. I get up around 7:20am(Sunday) to get a shower and get ready for church. I get to church and for some reason I just don't feel like being there. I sit through the main service, which by the way Jase great job!, barely keeping my eyes open for 5 minutes. I'm trying so hard to stay awake, i manage to stay awake the entire time. I head over to the youth wing, Abby comes up to me and starts talking to me, she said that i looked tired and i was. I told her that i haven't been sleeping well since i got home from CALI and she told me that if it doesn't get better than i have to call my doctor. I left Jcrew early to come to get some rest and i did. I just didn't feel like being at church this morning.

So as of late, I haven't been sleeping well ever since I got back from CALI and its starting to take a toll on me. Its been like 2 weeks since i returned home. I just want to be able to sleep through the night and not wake up in the middle of the night.

I've been emotionally drained from staying home all the time since i can't work yet. I'm getting kinda bummed and getting anxious to get back to work in a few weeks, hopefully. It stinks sitting at home with nothing to do besides work outside (I don't mind that), read, talk to people on AIM, read some more, take a walk, and clean my car. Thats gets pretty boring after a while. I'm the one that has to keeping doing something or i get frustrated/irriated.

Atleast I'll have something to look forward to in a couple of weeks and that is watching Samson and Rocky for a week. I'm excited!

I cleaned my room all day on Saturday and looked through papers, threw some out and kept some. I also dusted and reorganized some things that needed reorganizing.

plans for Monday:
~wash my car
~read a book
~hangout with friends
~coffee/meeting with Pearl at Brick House in Manheim
~home to read some more
~dinner
~free for the evening

well i'm going to go now and try, keyword TRY, to fall asleep since it is almost midnight and I'm not even tired, maybe I am, I don't know!!