Stupid computer!!

Last night i was trying to post but it didnt work. So i saved the post so here it is.....

I just lost everything that i typed!! So now this is going to be a shorter post.

Here is a pic of my supervisor's baby boy. His name is Griffin Patrick David Poff...I love the name Griffin. I know they wanted a unique name, something thats not very popular....He does have two middle names which is really neat.




Funny story......
My sister slept over at my grandparents Saturday night and we headed to church on Sunday morning. As I was going down the hill, I heard something that didn't sound normal for "Big Red" and decided to pull over. I got out of my car and found out that I had a flat tire. I was like "Crap, this is going to be a horrible day/week/month. I watched the Steelers game Sunday evening and they lost, not a surprise to me. Big Ben wasn't kickin it bc of the concussion from last week.

Heading South in January to help with the Katrina clean-up. I'm kinda nervous going because i dont know how its going to look. But at the same time I'm kinda excited because i get to make a difference in someone's life by helping with the clean-up and construction. I really don't know what to expect. All I know is that God's got it all in His hands!!!


Currently I'm readin Velvet Elvis and its a book that once i pick it up I can't put it down. I'm starting to like Rob Bell.

Monday is cleaning day because I have off all day and I'm kinda glad that i do. I love cleaning!! Its relaxing, well kind of. haha





**IMPORTANT**
Jason, if ur reading this, don't get rid of Samson, what will i do with out him when u, Jenny and SiSi go away and need someone to watch him and Rocky?? I know he'll be with Dan, but I'd miss him way to much!!! lol I just came to think of it you never do read this, at least it seems that way, which is alright with me!!

Making a difference!!

I just want to make a difference somewhere, so I'm praying that God wants me to head south to the katrina area. Although it costs 400$, I'm hoping that God provides for me, because if I can't find the money then my opportunity to head south falls.

My one favorite show to watch on Sunday night is Extreme Makeover Home Edition. I love Ty because he's all about making someone else's life a whole better by building them new homes. He never thinks about himself, only OTHERS! It just reminded me of the series we're doing at church. Its all about OTHERS.

My one best friend that I've known for 12 years got into some bad stuff and she knew she needed help but never got it. I recently talked to someone and found out that she went into rehab for the things that she was doing. I was so excited that she was getting help. I haven't talked to her for months now and she called my house and wanted to talk to me, but i was at work. I'm hoping that she calls sometime this week. I heard that she can't see or talk to a single person till she gets better. I'm quite excited for her, even if she's not excited to be in rehab. The reason why she's in rehab is a long story and i don't want to bore anyone with it.

Feel like a train hit me....

Lately, I feel like I got hit my a train. I've felt sick the last week or so.

I loved this one song by Alabama, yea I know they sing country songs but there are some good country songs. Its called "Angels Among Us"


I was walking home from school on a cold winter's day
Took a shortcut through the woods and I lost my way
It was getting late and I was scared and alone
Then a kind old man took my hand and led me home
Mama couldn't see him, but he was standing there
But I knew in my heart, he was the answer to my prayers

Oh I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our darkest hours
To show us how to live
To teach us how to give
To guide us with a light of love

When life dealt troubled times and had me down on my knees
There's always been someone there to come along and comfort me
A kind word from a stranger to lend a helping hand
A phone call from a friend just to say I understand
Ain't it kind of funny at the dark end of the road
Someone lights the way with just a single ray of hope

Oh I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our darkest hours
To show us how to live
To teach us how to give
To guide us with a light of love

They wear so many faces
Show up in the strangest places
Grace us with their mercy
In our time of need

Oh I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our darkest hours
To show us how to live
To teach us how to give
To guide us with a light of love


I haven't heard this song in a long time!! I absolutely love it. It reminds me of her looking down on me everyday, every move I make(good and bad), and every word I say to others.

I just came off of an okay week of work. Friday the one salad prep called of AGAIN, its the second time this week. On Monday, she called off because she was sick, then she had off tues and wed and then worked thurs and called off on Fri and had off sat, and sun. I told her on thurs to cut 2 cases of Lemon Mer. Pie for Friday and i come in and there's only 4 pies cut. So all afternoon i had to cut 8 more pies for the rest of the evening. I normally take a break at 2pm, but i had to clean up and didn't get on break till 215pm and my supervisor, Paul, was like its 215, don't come back till 245. So i sat outside and he comes out to the freezer and hands me an ice cream sandwich and i head into the kitchen and he's like "come here aunt ash," so i go into the office and just talk about life. He's literally the greatest guy to talk to at work. He knows when I'm angry, when I'm frustrated, when I'm in a good mood, when to leave me alone, and when to call me in the office to talk. You couldn't ask for a better supervisor!! He's given a few nicknames, here they are, in no particular order:

~Aunt Ash~
~Evil One~
~Sparks~
~Ash~
~Sparky~

If you need any explanation on any of these let me know, lol. I love the people i work with, i really do!!



Today i went to a store called Hilltop Acres Farm Market with my sister, its a Mennonite owned farm market. I went to the register and the lady's like, "I haven't seen you girls in a long time." That brought a smile to my face because we used to ride our bikes there in the summer, pretty much everyday. I just thought to myself, they really do remember us coming in everyday. I loved those lady's in there, their great people!! So I'm gonna try and get in there more often.

Don't know what to do. I feel like I'm stuck and i don't know where to turn.

I'm stuck in one spot, which way do i turn:

Do i turn towards God?
or
Do i go my own way?
Struggling here!!!

I'm crying out!!!

Why am i all of a sudden hate life, why? I don't want to relive the past, not at all.

I look at my moms picture every morning and wish she were here then i might actually talk to my dad.




My heart, my soul
Given freely to the only One
who takes away my sin
My life, my all
Placed into the loving arms of one who died
so I could live

Chorus:
So I will worship laying my life down
Giving You more than my songs of devotion
I’ve been forgiven, bought by Your blood Lord
I am no longer a slave to my sin

Repeat verse & Chorus
Repeat Chorus

Bridge:
I am Yours and You are mine
I am Yours and You are mine
Sing 4 x

Chorus:
So I will worship laying my life down
Giving You more than my songs of devotion
I’ve been forgiven, bought by Your blood Lord
I am no longer a slave to my sin

Tag:
So I will worship
So I will worship