thoughts from Ecclesiastes

i started to read Ecclesiastes yesterday, so therefore this post will be of Chapter 1.....
ok now that i lost all of my thoughts and now i dont know where to begin.....

something that got me thinking was 1:2, " Meaningless! Meaningless!" says the Teacher. "Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless."

1:18 says "For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief."

Recently I saw some sort of rating for stress and what casues the most stress, guess what was the munber one reason::: a death of a spouse(100 points), for me that would be "death of a parent" dont know if that would be the same.......if you accumulate too many points annually and you could be at risk for physical illness and/or mental health problems......i learned that the one day.....its quite interesting...........

tonight at the church service, they started out with a new song and i really liked it too...its called "I Am Free" here are part of the lyrics....matt would sing one line then we and the backup sings would sing what he sang,(pararenthesis, is what we and the backup sings would sing)....it was a great song, and we sang 2 other really good songs, i enjoyed this service a lot tonight
I am free to run
(I am free to run)
I am free to dance
(I am free to dance)
I am free to live for You
(I am free to live for You)
I am free
(I am free)
then after the service i went to the mall and walked around and saw a few people i knew from church, such as Robbie Bradfield and his parents, Clay from Next Level and his friend which i never met but seen before from Bible Study, a kid from school, and i think thats it......

well leave me something, if not okay then.......lol.............and Jason "get to work!!" lol good times on thursday at the church......i was working and got a lot done on weds. before yg(youth group) and also on thursday, lol........just figured id let you know.......lol........cya

Thinking once again

Well I went to this hang out thing at my old church tonight and it was a lot of fun, people of all ages were there. I walked into the room and I was just amazed because they had a pool table, fuseball, air hockey, and something that LCBC youth doesn't have in their room, a ping-pong table!!!!!! I could play that forever, if I could!!! I loved it so much. They have this activity night I think every Sunday night. I think that's what we at LCBC do for youth, have something there Sunday evenings but I don't know how well that would work out with all the leaders, so scratch that idea. lol......

this morning I had to work at 1000am till 230pm.....it wasn't too bad today, it was kind of interesting!! I also have to work tomorrow at 3pm-7pm and then I have for 4 days straight, what in the world am I going to do for those days??? I don't know yet, guess I will go those days one day at a time....

I know that Tuesday evening I'm going to Bible study and wed. night is youth group, hopefully this week is going to be nice out so I can go outside and mow my g-rents yard, well its more like a field, lol...And then maybe some gardening....

I was at the campground where I work on my days off of my main job, but I'm only working there Tuesday and Friday this week, well anyways right now I'm cleaning out the gardens and what not and Jason S. is like "didn't you want to do gardening as a career?" I was like yea......I love to be outdoors!!

I'm going to leave with a song by Delirious? called "Majesty" i love this song

Here I am, humbled by Your majesty,
Covered by Your grace so free.
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man,
Covered by the blood of the Lamb.

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,
Since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
Empty-handed but alive in Your hands.

Here I am, humbled by the love that You give,
Forgiven so that I can forgive.
So here I stand, knowing that I am Your desire,
Sanctified by glory and fire.

And now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,
Since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
Empty-handed but alive in your hands.
Singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love,
In the presence of Your Majesty.
Majesty.

We're singing Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
And I'm nothing but alive in Your hands.

We're singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love,
In the beauty of Your Majesty.
Majesty.

a little something from The Ragamuffin Gospel

today at work i was in the one walk in fridge and jamed my finger between two carts and then later on i opened the door to go outside to the dumpster and my one finger gets caught at some part of the other door and rips some skin off and it started to bleed, so i go ahead and got a bandaid and under my finger is like a purple color and the tip of my finger is swallen and still is....it definitly not very nice to look at and it hurts so bad.....then also i dropped a glass right after Dan dropped one, lol....that was great....

i got to meet Jon yesterday at church, he's a great guy, very fun to be around...he sees Dan and i and "he's like are you two sisters?" we're like, "no, we're twins!" he was shocked i guess....it was just the way he said all that, lol.....well heres something for you all to read........

These are from Chapter one of The Ragamuffin Gospel
Psalm 123 says, " As the eyes of the servant are on the hands of the master, as the eyes of a maid are on the hands of her mistress," we experince a vague sense of existential guilt. Our eyes or not on God. We believe that we can pull ourselves up by our bootstraps-indeed, we can do it ourselves. Sooner or later we are confronted with the painful truth of our inadequacy and insufficiency. Our security is shattered and our bootstraps are cut. We discover our inability to add even a single inch to our spiritual stature. <-------As I read that over and over, it made so much sense to me. "Our huffing and puffing to impress God, our scrambling for brownie points, our thrashing about trying to fix ourselves while hiding our pettiness and wallowing in guilt are nauseating to God and are a flat denial of the gospel of grace." "The word itself, grace, has become trite and debased through misuse and overuse."

"The word has lost its raw, imaginative power."

"God made the sinners righteous (that is, active righteousness) through the forgiveness of sins in justification."

"Justification by grace through faith" is the theologian's learned phrase for what Chesterton once called "the furious love of God."

"He has a single relentless stance toward us: He loves us."<----I love hearing that!! He loves us no matter what we do; thats awesome.

I think that enough for now, i just remembered that one of my friends told me today that my fingernail might fall off cuz of where i hit it at....thats not gonna be very pleasant!! but it'll grow back...oh well.......leave me something to read such as comments!! lol.........talk to you all later

loving this weather

well this morning after my one class, i went to work at my second job since its getting nice out, i am currently working 2 jobs, the one is outside at a campground and the other one is at Masonic Village in E-town, i wish that i could work at the campground more often, cuz i love working outdoors and getting a nice tan, like i got today!! i was picking up leaves that were left from when i used a leave blower in the fall....next week im gonna be working in the flower beds, i cant wait, i love gardening!!....and im not being sarcastic!!!.....i really love it.......so if anyone needs weeds to be pulled or grass to be mowed give me a shout!!! lol.....i also love mowing yards....

my grandma is stressing me out, last night i was so, idk how to put it, agitated, i guess thats the word i want; i couldnt sleep at all.....cant wait till tomorrow, work then yg, i get off at 500pm and then next wed. i have off, im lovin that!!.......well everyone have a wonderful day and go outside and do some stuff cuz this weathers not going to last very long!!.....later all

leave me some comments, maybe just one that says hey or something!!! lol

i've been thinking

I came across a passage in Ephesians 4:26-27, its says, "In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold."

I think thats what I'm doing right now, I mean, going to bed angry and then waking up the next day and feeling like you need to forgive someone or you said something to someone and it just wasnt good at all.......i dont kow, if this blog is random and doesnt make sense then its becauseits almost 1000pm and im very tired.......

I'm still reading The Ragamuffin Gospel, some days i cant seem to put the book down and then theres days where i dont feel like reading at all......recently i had a day or two where i couldnt stop reading it, i think i read two chapters in a day....i will post more about some stuff from the book tomorrow or something.......

i have had second thoughts on my new job, it seems to stress me out, at times that is, i love being outdoors, so that is why im working at a campground on my days off of my main job in E-town.....well im gonna go cuz i feel like im gonna fall asleep at my computer.....lol..........later

glad to be home

well the last week and a half was spent over at the Mitchells watching Samson and Rocky, i slept on the couch every night and it was comfortable at times, only when i was really tired though......

the last few days were interesting, cuz i have been stressed out and i can feel my blood pressure rise...i hate days like that and today was another one of those days....i totally forgot about this project for my one class and its worth 100points.....well there goes my A to an F....im trying to start it now, i dont know whats going on but if i fail this class i will forget about it and get my GED, even though i really dont want to, if it comes down to it......i just dont have the encouragement, except from my one grandma......

well its great to be home and able to sleep in my bed and not worry about taking out Samson, lol....just kidding, i loved taking care of him for such a long time, seemed that way, anyway........

im so tired right now and i feel, well, not good......good night all

such a beautiful day

this morning i woke up, i was so cold that i wanted to stay on the couch till it got warmer but no, Samson had to go outside and go to the bathroom, crazy dog!! lol.....

last night was youth group, and well since it was only Chad, Holmesy, Keith, Dan and I, it wasn't the same wed. night like it normally is, well you see, Jason loves to show us all these great little clips, it was kind of quiet without him there, not that it was a good thing, though....so the one custodian, is there every wed. night cleaning up the WWA and last night some students had cake from someone and it was on the floors in the lobby by the WWA..it was kind of gross too....so Chad sees the high tech vacuum and decides to try it out.....he was having a blast with it...wow i have never seen a guy so excited to vaccum floors.....that was mainly the only excitement all night.....Chad did a great job last night too...so...go Chad!! lol......

it was about going Retro with Prayer....it was great......

so right now, im here typing and then after that im gonna take Samson for a nice long walk cuz its a wonderful day to be outside and not inside......jason i guess ur not a fisherman after all, lol........well see you on sunday when u and Jenny get back....later

wonderful day...

well every morning since thursday i have been wakin' up to Samson licking my face, wanting to play or wanting to go outside at 6:00 in the am....i guess its not hurting me to get up and move around....lol......

i got all of my bills paid off and now i have my cell phone back in a few hours...i missed not having it, cuz i couldnt pay my bills for that, since then i have gotten a new job and its alright, i still miss the people at Kreiders, they were some great people there....

since I'm staying at the awesome, loving, caring, wonderful, amazing, kind Jason and Jenny Mitchells house, i have been getting a lot of reading done there, and thats a huge thing for me, cuz i have been slacking in the book that I've been reading and yet its such a awesome book.....well i gtg.....cya

have an awesome vacation Jason and Jenny, Samson misses you both!! lol....

wrong doing, i think

well yesterday wasnt a very good day, went to the church to shoot basketball thinking that i'll get everything off my mind, wrong!! went home after like 3 hours of shooting basketball and i'll just stop there, i dont feel the need to write more about it.....sorry.........but i need total forgive from God, cuz what i did wasnt very smart of me, thinking that it'll do me good cuz i've been stressed out lately......mainly with work and seriously i'm actually considering quitting there and going back to my old job, seriously if i dont get off weekends atleast once a month, then i'm leaving......maybe i will go back, i loved it there....maybe, i'll think about that one.....umm.........


I hate the starting of Spring cuz of my allergies....right now i dont feel great, its so hard for me to sleep, im sneezing so such, coughing, somewhat of a sore throat, and more, i hate it......i love this warm weather though..its great......lol.............

well nothing much is happening except that I'm gonna watch Jason and Jenny's pets, that'll be loads of fun right there....and Jason no need to pay dan and i for watching ur pets, we do it out of love, cuz u and Jenny are just so freakin awesome, trust me......lol......but if u both pay us, well then, i dont know what i'll do, lol......

well goodnight all,

and said to Jesus, "Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?" They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him. But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, "If any one of you is with out sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground."------John 4-8

the ragamuffin gospel and today

Well, i am reading The Ragamuffin Gospel and so far i enjoy it very much.....since i have my own copy of it, i underline certain points in the book...which is good for me, that way i can go back and look what i underlined and its easier for me to understand, i think anyways.......in the first chapter i found a few things that was really interesting, such as...........
-"The institutional church has become a wounder of the healers rather than a healer of the wounders."
-"Too many Christians are living in the house of fear and not in the house of love."
-Psalm 123, "As the eyes of the servant are on the hands of his master, as the eyes of a maid are on the hands of her mistress," we experince a vague sense of existential guilt. Our eyes are NOT on God. We believe that we can pull ourselves up by out bootstraps-indeed, we can do it ourselves.-----------we can do it but we cant pull ourselves up all of the way without God's help.
-"Sooner or later we are confronted with the painful truth of our inadequacy and insufficiency. Our sercurity is shattered and our bootstraps are cut."
-"We discover our inability to add even a single inch to our spiritual staure."
Theres so much more to this but its too much to write. Chapter One was good but every chapter, i think, is getting better......

This afternoon i was at the church shooting basketball for like 3 hours or so cuz i didnt work today, i was outside all day, the weather was awesome, since i was outside all day i got sun burn on my arms and a little on my face, yea thats odd, lol.....then i came home a washed my car and then i washed my papa's truck.....i wasnt feeling well at all today, woke up with a sore throat, it hurts for me to swollow right now, stuffy nose and my ears needed to pop this morning when i woke up, it wasnt good at all.

I'm gonna donate blood on thursday at the church, this will be my second time this year and my third time giving blood, once last year and this year was in Feburary. I excited. I love helping out any way possible and its good to donate blood cuz it takes all of ur "old" blood, that way ur heart can produce "clean" blood. It feels great afterwards, well i think anyways.

tomorrows gonna be another nice day, cant wait!!

wow what a day

well it all started saturday night when we had to change the clocks ahead an hour which means we lose an hour of sleep which i need that hour, since i had to get up and be at work at 630 in the morning and on top of that the roads pretty much flooded.........i was thinking, whoever came up with the spring ahead and fall back deals with the clocks, i hate it.....lol.........i like it when we gain an hour of sleep, not lose it, lol..............well i get to work a half hour early, so i decided to sleep for a little bit......after i got off at 230pm it all just went down hill..........i go out of the parking lot and had my window down and i hear something that DOES NOT sound normal, so i look over to my mirror and see my cars backend is lower then the rest of the car..............yup.............thats right i got a freakin flat tire........not good at all, cuz i didnt have my cell with me and i was looking for some kind of building that would have a phone that i can use...........and it was gettin cold and raining a little bit also......i was walking all over creation to find a building and all that was around me was apartments and homes for the elderly people......i was starting to get worried that i couldnt find a place......so i walked a different way and see that theres a door thats open, so i go over there and asks "wheres a phone that i can use?" an the man said and pointed to the phone, "right here", i finally got a hold of my grandparents and they came to bring a jack and the rest was up to me.....my grandpa told me what to do......i changed my first flat tire and hopefully my last, thats not true.....so if you need a tire change call me, lol.........thats if you dont know how........lol...........so in the end i didnt get home till about maybe 400 or 430pm and it took me about an hour or so to find a phone, lol.......sad but true..........

the place that i went to use the phone was needless to say a woodworking shop.... lol.....some of the older men go up there to build different types of chairs and just about anything, so as i was waiting for my g-rents i was up there talking to the 2 guys that were there and the one guy showed some of the things that he made, lets just say it was amazing...............when i got off the phone with my g-rents, the guy told me to stay inside there, i told him i had go and see if i had a spare tire and i did, hes like i want you to come back here cuz its getting cold out there.....he was so nice to me, i love the older people......some of them actually care and look out for the younger adults such as me.....he was so nice and then the other guy gave me a ride to my car. that was very nice of him......but my day wasnt the greatest day, i hate working sundays....i just hate it.....

im reading The Ragamuffin Gospel, very good book, im gonna have to find another book to read after im done with this one........i'll put some notes out of it and onto my site soon, maybe tomorrow cuz i dont work..........so that is my worst day in a long time......lol.......

can it get any worse??? goodnight all.....very tired now since i wrote this long blog, lol......so goodnight all.....

Overflow concert

Yesterday after my class at the high school, I left and had nothing to cause I didn't work at all. So I went to Barnes and Nobles and looked at CD's, books and magazines. Then I went to the church and shot some basketball cuz once again I was bored....I was there maybe for an hour or so cuz my grandparents don't have a basketball net so I have to go and find some place to shot......I went home and got something to eat and what not.....

Last night was the Overflow concert, it was very good.....there were so many people there, it was awesome......I think it was better than the 15 year anniversary CD we did live at another church cuz at the time we didn't have enough room for everyone.......then when that was over, I was talking to a few people.....I was sitting down front but not in the very front, lol, by myself cues I didn't know who was all coming, but all was well........I guess..........then Jenny comes up to Dan and I and asks what are we doing tonight? and we're like nothing, so she invited us over to their house with other leaders such as Sean and Megan, Duff and Miranda, Courtney, Ryan(not Holmesy), PJ and his gf........it was very exciting......we sat around ate pizza and Jason asks everyone what they thought of the concert and if we enjoyed, well like 2 or 3 people answer and didn't sound enthusiastic about it, he's like great sounds like everyone liked, something along that line, but it was just funny how no one answered him, lol......there was this old man with this one hat and almost looked like the Pope, he was so adorable, though.....

then played Apples to Apples(I think that's what it was called, not sure) I never heard of it nor played it before, it was a great game.......I got three green cards, no I didn't win but I did amazing considering it was my first time playing it......we let rocky up cuz he was in the basement and Samson attacks him like usual and then jenny would ask Samson if he wanted a treat and he would perk up, so she gave it to him and he went crazy, running around and everything, lol, he's such a crazy dog.....


I gotta go, tty all later and I'll finish later cuz I gotta get something to eat for breakfast before work, work at 10:00am till 5pm, so that means I'm gonna go to the service tonight for once in like 3 freakin weeks, lol later

overflow concert

Yesterday after my class at the high school, i left and had nothing to cause i didnt woek at all. So i went to Barnes and Nobles and looked at CDs, books and magazines. Then i went to the church and shot some basketball cuz once again i was bored....i was there maybe for an hour or so cuz my grandparents dont have a basketball net so i have to go and find some place to shot......i went home and got something to eat and what not.....

Last night was the Overflow concert, it was very good.....there were so many people there, it was awesome......i think it was better than the 15 year anniversity cd we did live at another church cuz at the time we didnt have enough room for everyone.......then when that was over, i was talking to a few people.....i was sitting down front but not in the very front, lol, by myself cuz i didnt know who was all coming, but all was well........i guess..........then Jenny comes up to Dan and i and asks what are we doing tonight? and we're like nothing, so she invited us over to their house with other leaders such as Sean and Megan, Duff and Miranda, Courtney, Ryan(not Holmesy), PJ and his gf........it was very exciting......we sat around ate pizza, then played Apples to Apples(i think thats what it was called, not sure) i never heard of it nor played it before, it was a great game.......i got three green cards, no i didnt win but i did amazing considering it was my first time playing it.......


i gotta go, tty all later and i'll finish later cuz i gotta get something to eat for breakfast before work, work at 10:00am till 5pm, so that means im gonna go to the service tonight for once in like 3 freakin weeks, lol later