Everything turned out!!

Today turned out alright....

I set my alarm for 6am to get up for work, well I didn't get up til about 5 of 7am and I had to leave for work at 7am to be there by 730am, I wanted to stop at Turkey Hill in Etown and well they weren't open yet, I was so angry cuz I wanted to get a drink, then I get to work and clock in, my supervisor, Russ, he's like "do you want the day off?" I was so surprised, and I was like "are you serious?!" he's told me that he was. He's like "Merry Christmas, its my Christmas gift for you!" he asked me if I was clock-in and told him that I was and he's like "I'll clock you out at 3pm or 330pm" I was getting paid time and a half for not working!! He told me that I'll have off for all three next year.
I was SO excited that I went home and went back to bed and woke up at 10am. When I woke up I was still tired and felt like staying in my bed all day, but I decided to have Christmas with my dad and stepmom....So I called them this morning and told them that I can make it for lunch, so headed over there about noon, had lunch, played games, and opened gifts.....I must say I do miss hanging out with my dad every day, like the good old days.....For once I actually enjoyed myself today....I stopped over at my g-rents and wished them a Merry Christmas since I missed lunch at there place yesterday(sat)...I love them so much!!

found out that a good neighbor of mine when I lived at my old place passed away a few days ago...He was an awesome person...

I remember when I was younger, we'd have breakfast then head down stairs to open our gifts as a family after that we'd head over to my g-rents that lived next door to us for lunch and opened gifts there....I miss being a kid again....lol

I got like 5 pairs of socks, shampoo(I get shampoo from them every year), 3 gift cards from my dad and stepmom, oh yea I also got a LONGABERGER BASKET!! Its my 3rd one, I'm so excited!! Can you tell?? lol...I'm digging the turtle socks!!! I've always loved turtles, especially the little ones, their so adorable.....


so my Christmas turned out awesome!!

oh Sheetz had FREE, yes FREE coffee today, every Christmas they have FREE coffee....So after I left from my dads I went to Sheetz to get a cappuccino for FREE, not a single penny!!! I was so excited... I love the French Vanilla.....My day just got better and better as the day went on.

well i think thats all for now.....gotta head to bed...im so tired and full from lunch...it was like a feast!!! lol....later

Christmas Eve Eve Service

The Christmas Eve Eve service was A-MAZING!!!! I love the song Angus Dei.......

alleluia, alleluia
For the lord God almighty reigns
Alleluia, alleluia
For the lord God almighty reigns
Alleluia
Holy, holy are you lord God almighty
Worthy is the lamb
Worthy is the lamb
You are holy, holy are you lord God almighty
Worthy is the lamb
Worthy is the lamb
Amen

Oh and Matt Goss has WAY too much time on his hands with that video they showed.....

i wont see any of my family at all for Christmas, i have work for the next 14 freakin days!! seriously....looks like i wont be traveling South to NC to see my cousin and has wife and Austin, their son....i've only seen video and pictures of him....i miss them so much....

my dad finally called me today....he's having family over on sunday but i cant make that either as well as my grandparents on Saturday, cuz of work....yuck!!

Christmas is different for me this year.......














I've been thinking about this for a while now....it gets me thinking for once, jk.....ok heres a question.....im gonna try to word it as best as i can.......
after you die, you go up into Heaven, right, do you stay the same age that you died and are cured of every disease and illness or do you get older and you still are cured of every disease and illness?? i dont know why i've been thinking about that lately, but i have....i guess i was thinking of someone special...idk.....kind of a stupid question....i dont know why i even wrote it on here.............


alright that was a stupid question!! lol

8 years today

well today is 8 years since my mom passed...seems like yesterday, i can remember everything that happened that day.....crappy day for me.....but im lookin at the positive things that she taught me.....i loved her and i still do....one day i'll get to see her face.....

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I announce here in and forever more that I am a part of the church of the out of control. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I've given up control to the Spirit. I've surrendered control to God. I've jumped off the fence. I've stepped over the line. There is no turning back, looking around, slowing down, backing away, letting up or shutting up. It's life played against the odds., outside the box, over the wall. The game of life played without goal lines other than "Thy will be done."

I'm done primping and pimping for the over dogs, the wonder dogs, and the lapdogs. I'm done playing by the rules whether it's Roberts's Rules of Order or Martha Stewart's Rules of Homemaking or Merrill Lynch's Rules of the money minding and bottom-lining ladder climbing. I am not here to please the dominant culture or to serve any buck stops nowhere bureaucrats.

I am here to please my Lord and my Savior. This means that sometimes I am called to sharpen the cutting edge and sometimes to blunt the cutting edge. This means that I'm finished with second hand sensations; third rate dreams low risk high-risk trades and goose-stepping, flag waving crusades. I no longer need applause, approval, and affluence.

I now live by God-breathed love. Christ centered faith and Spirit driven power. My face is upward. My feet are outward. My eyes are focused. My way is cloudy. My knees are worn. My seat uncreased. My heart burdened. My spirit light. My road narrow. My mission wide. I can't be bought by any personalities or perks, positions or prizes.

I won't give up, though I might easily give into openness of mind, humbleness of heart, and generosity of spirit. In the face of adversity no longer will I hang in there. I will stand in there, I will run in there, I will pray in there, I will sacrifice in there, I will endure in there. I will do everything in fact, except hang.

I won't be seduced by popularity, traduced by criticism, travestied by hypocrisy, or trivialized by mediocrity. I've stopped trying to make things work and started trying to make things sing.
I am the institutionalized Church's best friend and worst nightmare. I won't back down, slow down, shut down, or let down, until I'm preached out, teached out, healed out, or hauled out of God's mission that has been entrusted to all of us to unbind the confined whether they're overlooked, the unrepresented, the down trodden, or the upscale.

My fundamental indentity is a disciple of Jesus--but even more a disciple of Jesus who lives in Christ. Who seeks to travel through history not just simply "In His steps" but more deeply and more intimately "In His Spirit." I must go until he comes, give till I drop, preach till I know all, and work till he stops--till He comes again or calls me home. I can be found not killing time but filling time. So that one day He will pick me out of the line-up of the aged as one of his own. And then....It will be worth it all--to hear the most precious words I could ever hear, "Well done, thy good and faithful, servant."

Random

since im updating so much now i dont know what to write in here....Christmas is almost here, i cant believe it.....since we got like 6 inces of snow recently, i love to drive my explorer through the snow...its so much better than my "blue beast!!" lol.....i miss that car, okay not really...right now im on painkillers for my wrist and tuesday i go back to the doctors, its not getting better and yea the painkillers are working but i dont wanna become addicted to them, that just wont be good...

Recently i've been getting up like 30 minutes before i have to leave for work because im so cold and wanna stay cuddled up in my nice, warm bed....friday i'll get to sleep in bcoz i dont work friday!! yes!!! im so excited.....a 3 day weekend for me, but im gonna spend some time thinking about life and family....and i have to write my dad a Christmas card, havent talked to him in a while....well thats it

I'm OUT!!!






Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.

You just can't do it!!

Discovering everything that i've done in the past 2 months or so has really gotten me thinking. How could i have been so stupid to deal with stress that way. i realized now that its not a very good way to deal with it, so now that i have a new work schedule and have off the weekends now, i feel less stressed. I still get my days where its stressful but i talk to my supervisor about it and then he helps me throughout the day to make sure i dont flipout on anyone.

So im giving everything up to God, cuz i cant do it on my own anymore, i've tried and failed, i ran away for so long and came back. You can't do life on your own, just incase no one knew that. lol. i regret doing what i did, totally.....i cant believe that i did that.

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

CHORUS
Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything seems cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

CHORUS
Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same



awesome song^^^^ Runaway train by Soul Asylum

Does He only take the best??

its been a while since I updated this site and almost forgot the password...

lifes been hard for me the last few months. I guess I was trying to do life on my own and fell into some bad habits of mine and that's when I realized that I cant do it on my own..I needed someone to guide me in the right direction, someone to run to, someone to be there waiting for me to come back after running away for so long and I've finally gave my life up to God, coz I just couldn't do life without Him.....I know with Thanksgiving coming up and Christmas not much farther away its not going to be easy, but after all of that passes I think I'll be good..

seems like just yesterday that everything happened. I still see her face everyday and I think that's what's keeping me going......I realize how much I miss her, so therefore I miss her a whole lot.....I still wish that didn't happen to her, yea God took that someone special from me but maybe He did it for a reason, idk.....

I found this in a journal of mine, and yes I had a journal but stopped writing in it.


He Only Takes the Best

God saw she was getting tired
and a cure was not to be
so He put his arms around her
and whispered, "Come follow Me."

With tear-filled eyes, we watched her
suffer and fade away.
Although we loved her deeply,
we could not make her stay.

A golden heart stopped beating,
hard- working hands put to rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.


its true, He does take the best!!!




who's this lovely, adorable snowball?? Oh wait its a dog, named Samson....I hope we get a blizzard this winter and have Samson go outside, he'll blend right into the snow and I will laugh so hard!! lol jk I love that dog.....Can't wait till next week....

Weather!!

The weather here has been amazing!! I woke up this morning around 5am but didn't actually get out of bed until 533am....I had to work this morning so therefore I had to be there at 630am...I head out the door at 6am and when your up that early now, the sun has barely rinsen at that time.......Anyways I went outside this morning and it was COLD!! I was about to turn on the heat on my car but I didn't.........so then I get to work and the other 3 people that were there, were also cold, we have 2 walkin refridgeators and 1 freezer, well the supervisor goes in the freezer and comes out saying, "man! its cold in there!!" this other girl and I just crack up laughing....but normally its not cold in the kitchen but I guess if its hot outside then it'll be hot in the kitchen and vise versa.........work wasn't too bad today, kind of fun I guess.........Every Sunday that I work there's always the cooks and salad preps at 630am and the servers and bussers come in around 10am but we don't open till 1030am and stay open until 1pm or 130...... you all are probably what we do in about 4 or 5 hours before everyone comes in?? hahaha.....
i've had that question asked to me once before......the answer is too long for me to type, maybe me next post i'll type the answer.........


I recently went full time at work and it has its stressful times every now and again......



cya

work

Well last night at work i was told that im going to be a full-time salad prep......thats good and bad, cuz well i have to work Mon thru Saturday 930 til 700pm, with a half hour break, and Sunday 630am til 230pm............yea i need the money to save up for an apartment, my car payments, gas, cell phone, insurance and possibly college.....just about my entire day is going to be working....i dont know when i'll be a full-timer but its probably going to be in the next couple of months......

i got to meet Matt and Pearl, they are awesome people, since i've been at the church the last two days. yesterday they didnt know where the Green Room is at the church and well they came back to the youth wing and asked joyce and she asked me to show them..........well the first time i was in that room, i was like "This isnt GREEN!!" Chad's like "yea you noticed too" lol.......and i said something about the Great Room, i was like "why is it called the Great Room, whats so GREAT about that room??" Chads like "wow i never thought about that one, thats a good point!!" lol............it was great running to Darrenkamps for Chad too.......Chad comes up to me as i'm doing something for John and is like "who wants to run somewhere for me??" hes like ash you do!! hes like "o-o-o-o me, me, me!!" and i was like "tell me where first" so he told me and then i was "o-o-o-o me,me,me!!" fun times yesterday!!

thats it..........

A Need To Slow DOWN!!

Work week has been a blast this summer and i loved the shorten day too.......it was so awesome being at the Lancashire Hall today, we did some weeding for an hour and got so much done, it was outstanding, the weather was wonderful today........then we went inside and tossed the residents some balloons and have them hit it back to us, we were impressed with some of them cuz they would hit it hard, it was a great time.........i think they enjoyed us being there a lot.........

Then last night i went with Jason, Jenny, Holmesy, Missy, Ryan K., and two other people to go to the movies and see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory!!!! it was an awesome movie..........well on the way there Jason was bring up the first time he met me and that was on the Wilderness Camp 02 and i was a junior in high school and now I'm graduated........it was an awesome ride with Jase and Jenny.....then on the way home Jason pl ayed this song about Tamollies(spelling) it was such an awesome song!!! ....Willy Wonka, Willy Wonka.............

Yesterday after we were done with work week i went to a friends house to swim and let me tell ya it felt so good to swim after being out in what felt like 105 degree weather.........yea i got burnt too.............

Speaking of BURNT!! I burnt my hand at work on Monday with some 150 or so degree soup......yea it happened a 1/2 hour after i got into work....i had to stay there the rest of the evening til 7pm......i was in so much pain and it took like a day or two for the burning sensation in my hand to go away and now it blistered opened and it hurts again..........its gonna be a nice scar probably too, YES!!!!!!!

i think thats all for now..............leave some comments, i feel like im writing in here for nothin', but it doesnt bother me though.... :)


Thanks Jason for playin the song for me

Jet Lag is not fun at all

A group of us from the church arrived back from California this morning at 700am......lets just say that was a little early...lol..........Our flight back to PA was at 1055pm last night.....so as of right now I'm very tired and have jet lag............i had jet lag when we arrived in LA, California........we lost 3 whole hours of sleep when we arrived.....thats not fun.........but now on I'm gonna talk about the week...........

Sunday.....met everyone in the church...to be honest i was kind of nervous meeting them, but after sunday i was good........met our host families.....we had five girls plus the parents and the two daughters and a grandmother and then a sister of the wife plus the sisters husband...they were a very nice family............

Monday thru Friday........met the kids for VBS...........had a bible study after lunch...went to the pool.........went back to the church for dinner and had another bible study, but this one was like no other..lol........lets just say it was VERY emotional.............

it was so dry in El Centro and hot, NOT WARM!!! lol.....the highest that it was for the week was i think 123 degrees F.........CAN YOU SAY HOT!!!!!!! we had to drink literally a gallon or more of water a DAY!!!!!!!

Wed. some of us went to Mexico to visit a church, we get there and the AC doesnt work very well...we started to sweat right away......then we went outside with the kids and did some songs and a story from the Bible.........

Friday we had to say our good byes and that was really hard.........

the food was really good and the church people were very welcoming to us.......

oh yea i met a guy from Philly, PA at the hotel that we stayed at in LA.........its a long story so maybe i'll tell it later............and then at the church i met Daniel......lol........i'll also tell that later.........lol.................i miss everyone right now............Jonathan's coming up in about a week to visit us for 2 weeks, im so excited!!!

I'm sure i've missed alot of things from the trip.......but right now i have jet lag and i feel kind of light headed, i dont know if thats good and i have to be at work in an hour........

Here I come!!

Then he said to them all: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me." Luke 9:23.......EVERYDAY LUKE 9:23!!

I'm not going to update this thing for a week, cuz I'm gonna be in California and Mexico til Sunday July 17th........... like anyone cares, lol............

I'm so excited but nervous too......I have no idea what to expect when the team leads a Vacation Bible School for the Mexician children.........i hope they have good water there too...lol.........its gonna be like a vacation for me, but its not going to be a vacation because we will be working out there.........its all God's will for me.........i was talking to my grandmas sister, i think, and she was saying how awesome it would be if i was called to be a missionary in Mexcio.......i was like yea, i would enjoy it so much, just reaching out to the Mexicans............

He Only Takes the Best
God saw she was getting tired
and a cure was not to be
so He put his arms around her
and whispered, "Come follew Me."

With tear-filled eyes,
we watched her
suffer and fade away.
Although we loved her deeply,
we could not make her stay.

A golden heart stopped beating,
hard- working hands put to rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.

^^^i love what that says----it reminds me of my mom, i found this in some book that i read years ago.....i dont remember what book though..........

Just remember to pray for the team of students that are going to CA and Mexico, for health and strength and for us as a team to get closer to one another..........thanks

update when i come back.......like anyone would miss!!

I'M OUT!!!!!

UE CAMP

I love Psalm 46:10; "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." I love the first part, and thats what Duff told us when the first full day of UE camp started, "Be still and know that I am God".....he also told us to "remember to breathe throughout the week........it was an amazing week!!!

UE camp was amazing and im so glad that i could be a part of the camp team this year.....i was leaving for the camp on sunday, cuz im a loser and had to work a full day on saturday....anyways, i was thinking to myslef "man i hate doing skits in front of people!" well i got through the first skit on Monday, the rest were a breeze...lol........i was in all 4 and i wasnt expecting to be in all 4..........but i really and truly enjoyed doing them.........

Tim the speaker did a great job too reaching out to the middle schoolers.......

one thing i loved about being on camp team was every night after the sessions we as a team would go up to Judah and just talked about some serious stuff.......i loved those nights.........

Wednesday night Holmesy came up to Judah and did some worship songs for the camp team and i kind if left during a song and had to go out and just really pray about some sutff that was happening........then as i was walking back to Judah Ben saw me walking and came up to me asked if everything was alright and i said kind of and then i said not really and started to cry and he just gave me a hug and asked me if i wanted to talk and i was like sure......so we walked up to the merry-go-round thing and i just told him what was going on and then he prayed for me.......it was just an awesome experince.........

Thursday night about midnight or so we had communion out by the pond, where Ben Murray, yes thats Gina's brother, played some songs for the camp team and Miranda and Duff washed our feet and then we went up to a table type thing and got bread and juice and took communion.......it was a great experience........I have never prayed that much in an entire week and now i'm gonna start to pray more often, cuz the power of prayer goes a long way, i found that out a few times during the week..........

A close friend of mine was at UE and we're like sisters and everything......well the one night she went up to the front and wrote a few things on note cards that she was dealing with and the big sister that i am, i went up to her after the session and prayed for her and we both started to cry, it was just an awesome experience..........

I will never forgot this week at UE.......In the beginning of the week Duff had plans for every night and decided that God was speaking to him about doing something totally different and the one night he was reading out of the Bible and came to a part about breathing.....and the goal for us as a camp team was to "Remember to Breathe"..........i love that............

later gators!!!!

the song of the week was "How Great is Our God" by Chris Tomlin-----awesome song!!
The splendor of a King, clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice
All the earth rejoice

He wraps himself in Light, and darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice
Trembles at His voice

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see How great,
how great is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the end
Beginning and the end

The Godhead Three in One
Father Spirit Son
The Lion and the Lamb
The Lion and the Lamb

Name above all names
Worthy of all praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Chapter from Ragamuffin Gospel

I've been slacking in my reading lately and im trying to get back into it and its been hard because i always say to myself, I dont feel like reading i c9ould be doing something better." but seriously i need to get back into my reading.......so i finally read last night and here are some points from the book.........

--The ragamuffin Christ is roughly handled, pushed aroun, scourged and spat upon, murdered and buried among His own ilk. I had no idea what ilk meant so i went to dictionary.com to check it out and it didnt clear any of that up, so i decided to forget about it...lol

--"God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God." 2 Corinthians 5:21.....Every form of sin and its consequences, broken relationships, hatred, pride, jealousy, cancer, and on and on were experienced and carried by "a thing despised and rejected by men" (Isaiah 53:3) who knew the nadir of an agony such as no one has ever dreamed....there were more in the list above but i just typed the ones that have or had applied to my own life.....broken relationships with my dad and i are progressing which is awesome....i've been praying about it and this morning before the service in big church to tell me that he cant make it to the senior luncheon cuz he has to work and he thanked me for asking him and said love ya and i said it back, its been a long time since i said that to my dad.....and wow did it feel great......

--Jesus is God.....no question on that, lol...

-- What shall we say to such an out pouring of love? How shall we respond?
--- The love of Christ and His gospel of grace calls for a personal, free, and unconventional decision.

-- It is Christ offering the opportunity of a lifetime: "I, the Light, have come into the world, so that whoever believes in me need not stay in the dark anymore." John 12:46.......i like that passage a lot.....i just love how it says that He came into the world so that we wont have to be in the dark, but there are times where i do feel that way and lately i have, but He is here to give us light......which is awesome..........

-- We cannot will ourselves to accept grace. There are no magic words, preset formulas, or esoteric rites of passage. Only Jesus Christ sets us free from indecision.

more tomorrow night cuz my eyes are getting heavy, lol...............well good night all.......
leave me something, please, lol

Being near to God

Last night was just an awesome time at bible study......we hung out for a while and played volleyball, then had a time of worship which Andy led us in, he did a great job.......then we just sat and prayed and sang one more song..we also talked about breaking up our bible study so other college age students could join in, that means we need more houses to host the studies.......its great to have the same age range just singing together........I think last was a much needed night.....we sang "Hungry(falling on my knees)"

Hungry I come to you for I know you satisfy
I am empty but I know your love does not run dry

And so I wait for you
so I wait for you

I'm falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

Broken I run to you for Your arms are open wide
I am weary but I know your touch restores my life


Lord, thank you for not giving up on me through my tough times in life, Your right there with me and loving me through the good and bad. I know that if I don't have anyone to go and talk to, that I can talk to you through prayer and You will listen and thats awesome Lord. You don't care what I do and You still love me. Your unconditional love for me, its just so awesome. Thank you Lord for everything that You did. Amen


"The end is near. Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen"
1 Peter 7-11

Lack of sleep

Last night I got a phone call on my cell and it was my twin sister, Dan.....so she asks me if I'm doing anything around 9:15pm and I was like no why?......there was a softball game at the high school in Manheim and I went.......it wasn't over till 1045pm and there was only college age students there cheering on LCBC and they really appreciated that too.....a few of us, 5 to be exact, went to the Diner in Manheim, its called Manheim Diner, but the sign says Lyndon Diner....they haven't changed the sign yet....ok well......we go there just for fellowship and it was great!! I had an awesome time and since they are open 24 hours we were there till about 1:30 in the morning this morning and I had to get up at 6am this morning........it felt like I didn't even get time to sleep....I've noticed that throughout the day it goes slow, and when your asleep and pretty soon the sun is rising......I didn't go to bed till 2:00am this morning....

we did have some very good conversations though.....but by 1:00am or so we started to talk about our childhood and what dumb things we did, lol......at my old house we had "L" bunks, they were like bunkbeds but in the shape of an L....they were cool back then...lol........one night I decided that I wanted to sleep on the top bunk cuz I always slept on the bottom, well Dan lets me and the next thing I know, I'm on the floor and it was a good drop too, from the top bunk to the floor, I just stay there the rest of the night and yeah it kind of hurt when i wasn't expected to fall off.......lol.........never again have I slept on the top bunk..........lol.............

then we talked about dating, where everyone went to church before they came to LCBC, if they went to another church.........car accidents and tickets and we(us 4 girls) decided that guys tend to have more accidents and get more tickets cuz their showing off their car.....lol......we had some really awesome conversations......I want to do that again some time soon...........lol............

well I"m headin to bed.......and jase good luck getting up in the morning after seeing the new Star Wars movie, lol.........good luck with that!!.........................lol......oh yeah, i believe i do more work then you when im helping out Joyce, lol........just kidding, you do work hard.........lol.........go home and go to bed..........lol.................jase your awesome!!.........................good night all.......

nothing new has happened since the last time that i wrote in this thing.....thats pretty sad i guess, well maybe not, idk.........im trying to put some pictures on here to make it a little more exciting......they're most likely gonna be random pics......




^^^this was my cat that i found at my g-rents house last summer but he must have gotten in a lot of fights or something cuz he's been gone for a while now..i found that cat when he was a kitten.......i miss that cat, he was always waiting for me to get home from work......but recently i found another kitten at my g-rents house but he was too young for me to take care of....he was the most adorable kitten that i found and wanted to keep him but i couldnt, i was kind of sad about that.......but i took him to the Human League of Lancaster just the other day cuz the mother cat must have left him......and i didnt want him to die cuz he was so young, he deserved a chance to live and go to a loving family..lol......i had him outside in the grass and he would follow me around, it was so freakin cute.....lol...........

more pics to come later........

Mothers Day coming up

Mothers Day is coming up this Sunday.....so yea its gonna be hard to get through that day.......oh how I miss my mom..........so I guess this Sunday I'm just gonna remember her and how awesome she was........I loved her so much and even though she's not around I still love her, she has a special spot in my heart that will never leave...........I so wish she was here right now, I could use her help.......she was an amazing person and very outgoing, all around wonderful person to be around...........
more to come on Sunday.........

why did I post this??, I don't know, I guess its another one of my dumb posts, idk.......it was just in my mind and I've been thinking about it a lot........to see everyone out with their moms and everything..............I guess I just get down about it, cuz I just wish that the doctors could have helped her more...............

Trusting people

Well this afternoon after work I go to Turkey Hill in town(Manheim, that is) and on the door is this sign "Missing!" and I saw the name and it sounded so familiar, so I came home and looked in my yearbook from last year and there she was.....I was so shocked when I saw that piece of paper on the door....of all places that everyone's missing from, it has to be Manheim.....these days you can't seem to trust anyone, I mean, you just never know what's going to happen around your area, seriously.........or CAN you trust them?? It's so sad when other people have to take another person away and do who knows what, murder them, abuse them, or just take them somewhere else that no one else knows....... thats just something that I've noticed throughout the news the last couple of days.......such as one lady that's been missing for 3 days and is now in New Mexico or whatever, she says that she was kidnapped but really wasn't, get that one, she was to get married in Georgia but she said that she got "cold feet"......some people are confusing.........her family was worried and everything but now she's back home in Georgia........

well that's my ranting, if you wanna call it that!! lol

thoughts from Ecclesiastes

i started to read Ecclesiastes yesterday, so therefore this post will be of Chapter 1.....
ok now that i lost all of my thoughts and now i dont know where to begin.....

something that got me thinking was 1:2, " Meaningless! Meaningless!" says the Teacher. "Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless."

1:18 says "For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief."

Recently I saw some sort of rating for stress and what casues the most stress, guess what was the munber one reason::: a death of a spouse(100 points), for me that would be "death of a parent" dont know if that would be the same.......if you accumulate too many points annually and you could be at risk for physical illness and/or mental health problems......i learned that the one day.....its quite interesting...........

tonight at the church service, they started out with a new song and i really liked it too...its called "I Am Free" here are part of the lyrics....matt would sing one line then we and the backup sings would sing what he sang,(pararenthesis, is what we and the backup sings would sing)....it was a great song, and we sang 2 other really good songs, i enjoyed this service a lot tonight
I am free to run
(I am free to run)
I am free to dance
(I am free to dance)
I am free to live for You
(I am free to live for You)
I am free
(I am free)
then after the service i went to the mall and walked around and saw a few people i knew from church, such as Robbie Bradfield and his parents, Clay from Next Level and his friend which i never met but seen before from Bible Study, a kid from school, and i think thats it......

well leave me something, if not okay then.......lol.............and Jason "get to work!!" lol good times on thursday at the church......i was working and got a lot done on weds. before yg(youth group) and also on thursday, lol........just figured id let you know.......lol........cya

Thinking once again

Well I went to this hang out thing at my old church tonight and it was a lot of fun, people of all ages were there. I walked into the room and I was just amazed because they had a pool table, fuseball, air hockey, and something that LCBC youth doesn't have in their room, a ping-pong table!!!!!! I could play that forever, if I could!!! I loved it so much. They have this activity night I think every Sunday night. I think that's what we at LCBC do for youth, have something there Sunday evenings but I don't know how well that would work out with all the leaders, so scratch that idea. lol......

this morning I had to work at 1000am till 230pm.....it wasn't too bad today, it was kind of interesting!! I also have to work tomorrow at 3pm-7pm and then I have for 4 days straight, what in the world am I going to do for those days??? I don't know yet, guess I will go those days one day at a time....

I know that Tuesday evening I'm going to Bible study and wed. night is youth group, hopefully this week is going to be nice out so I can go outside and mow my g-rents yard, well its more like a field, lol...And then maybe some gardening....

I was at the campground where I work on my days off of my main job, but I'm only working there Tuesday and Friday this week, well anyways right now I'm cleaning out the gardens and what not and Jason S. is like "didn't you want to do gardening as a career?" I was like yea......I love to be outdoors!!

I'm going to leave with a song by Delirious? called "Majesty" i love this song

Here I am, humbled by Your majesty,
Covered by Your grace so free.
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man,
Covered by the blood of the Lamb.

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,
Since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
Empty-handed but alive in Your hands.

Here I am, humbled by the love that You give,
Forgiven so that I can forgive.
So here I stand, knowing that I am Your desire,
Sanctified by glory and fire.

And now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,
Since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
Empty-handed but alive in your hands.
Singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love,
In the presence of Your Majesty.
Majesty.

We're singing Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
And I'm nothing but alive in Your hands.

We're singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love,
In the beauty of Your Majesty.
Majesty.

a little something from The Ragamuffin Gospel

today at work i was in the one walk in fridge and jamed my finger between two carts and then later on i opened the door to go outside to the dumpster and my one finger gets caught at some part of the other door and rips some skin off and it started to bleed, so i go ahead and got a bandaid and under my finger is like a purple color and the tip of my finger is swallen and still is....it definitly not very nice to look at and it hurts so bad.....then also i dropped a glass right after Dan dropped one, lol....that was great....

i got to meet Jon yesterday at church, he's a great guy, very fun to be around...he sees Dan and i and "he's like are you two sisters?" we're like, "no, we're twins!" he was shocked i guess....it was just the way he said all that, lol.....well heres something for you all to read........

These are from Chapter one of The Ragamuffin Gospel
Psalm 123 says, " As the eyes of the servant are on the hands of the master, as the eyes of a maid are on the hands of her mistress," we experince a vague sense of existential guilt. Our eyes or not on God. We believe that we can pull ourselves up by our bootstraps-indeed, we can do it ourselves. Sooner or later we are confronted with the painful truth of our inadequacy and insufficiency. Our security is shattered and our bootstraps are cut. We discover our inability to add even a single inch to our spiritual stature. <-------As I read that over and over, it made so much sense to me. "Our huffing and puffing to impress God, our scrambling for brownie points, our thrashing about trying to fix ourselves while hiding our pettiness and wallowing in guilt are nauseating to God and are a flat denial of the gospel of grace." "The word itself, grace, has become trite and debased through misuse and overuse."

"The word has lost its raw, imaginative power."

"God made the sinners righteous (that is, active righteousness) through the forgiveness of sins in justification."

"Justification by grace through faith" is the theologian's learned phrase for what Chesterton once called "the furious love of God."

"He has a single relentless stance toward us: He loves us."<----I love hearing that!! He loves us no matter what we do; thats awesome.

I think that enough for now, i just remembered that one of my friends told me today that my fingernail might fall off cuz of where i hit it at....thats not gonna be very pleasant!! but it'll grow back...oh well.......leave me something to read such as comments!! lol.........talk to you all later

loving this weather

well this morning after my one class, i went to work at my second job since its getting nice out, i am currently working 2 jobs, the one is outside at a campground and the other one is at Masonic Village in E-town, i wish that i could work at the campground more often, cuz i love working outdoors and getting a nice tan, like i got today!! i was picking up leaves that were left from when i used a leave blower in the fall....next week im gonna be working in the flower beds, i cant wait, i love gardening!!....and im not being sarcastic!!!.....i really love it.......so if anyone needs weeds to be pulled or grass to be mowed give me a shout!!! lol.....i also love mowing yards....

my grandma is stressing me out, last night i was so, idk how to put it, agitated, i guess thats the word i want; i couldnt sleep at all.....cant wait till tomorrow, work then yg, i get off at 500pm and then next wed. i have off, im lovin that!!.......well everyone have a wonderful day and go outside and do some stuff cuz this weathers not going to last very long!!.....later all

leave me some comments, maybe just one that says hey or something!!! lol

i've been thinking

I came across a passage in Ephesians 4:26-27, its says, "In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold."

I think thats what I'm doing right now, I mean, going to bed angry and then waking up the next day and feeling like you need to forgive someone or you said something to someone and it just wasnt good at all.......i dont kow, if this blog is random and doesnt make sense then its becauseits almost 1000pm and im very tired.......

I'm still reading The Ragamuffin Gospel, some days i cant seem to put the book down and then theres days where i dont feel like reading at all......recently i had a day or two where i couldnt stop reading it, i think i read two chapters in a day....i will post more about some stuff from the book tomorrow or something.......

i have had second thoughts on my new job, it seems to stress me out, at times that is, i love being outdoors, so that is why im working at a campground on my days off of my main job in E-town.....well im gonna go cuz i feel like im gonna fall asleep at my computer.....lol..........later

glad to be home

well the last week and a half was spent over at the Mitchells watching Samson and Rocky, i slept on the couch every night and it was comfortable at times, only when i was really tired though......

the last few days were interesting, cuz i have been stressed out and i can feel my blood pressure rise...i hate days like that and today was another one of those days....i totally forgot about this project for my one class and its worth 100points.....well there goes my A to an F....im trying to start it now, i dont know whats going on but if i fail this class i will forget about it and get my GED, even though i really dont want to, if it comes down to it......i just dont have the encouragement, except from my one grandma......

well its great to be home and able to sleep in my bed and not worry about taking out Samson, lol....just kidding, i loved taking care of him for such a long time, seemed that way, anyway........

im so tired right now and i feel, well, not good......good night all

such a beautiful day

this morning i woke up, i was so cold that i wanted to stay on the couch till it got warmer but no, Samson had to go outside and go to the bathroom, crazy dog!! lol.....

last night was youth group, and well since it was only Chad, Holmesy, Keith, Dan and I, it wasn't the same wed. night like it normally is, well you see, Jason loves to show us all these great little clips, it was kind of quiet without him there, not that it was a good thing, though....so the one custodian, is there every wed. night cleaning up the WWA and last night some students had cake from someone and it was on the floors in the lobby by the WWA..it was kind of gross too....so Chad sees the high tech vacuum and decides to try it out.....he was having a blast with it...wow i have never seen a guy so excited to vaccum floors.....that was mainly the only excitement all night.....Chad did a great job last night too...so...go Chad!! lol......

it was about going Retro with Prayer....it was great......

so right now, im here typing and then after that im gonna take Samson for a nice long walk cuz its a wonderful day to be outside and not inside......jason i guess ur not a fisherman after all, lol........well see you on sunday when u and Jenny get back....later

wonderful day...

well every morning since thursday i have been wakin' up to Samson licking my face, wanting to play or wanting to go outside at 6:00 in the am....i guess its not hurting me to get up and move around....lol......

i got all of my bills paid off and now i have my cell phone back in a few hours...i missed not having it, cuz i couldnt pay my bills for that, since then i have gotten a new job and its alright, i still miss the people at Kreiders, they were some great people there....

since I'm staying at the awesome, loving, caring, wonderful, amazing, kind Jason and Jenny Mitchells house, i have been getting a lot of reading done there, and thats a huge thing for me, cuz i have been slacking in the book that I've been reading and yet its such a awesome book.....well i gtg.....cya

have an awesome vacation Jason and Jenny, Samson misses you both!! lol....

wrong doing, i think

well yesterday wasnt a very good day, went to the church to shoot basketball thinking that i'll get everything off my mind, wrong!! went home after like 3 hours of shooting basketball and i'll just stop there, i dont feel the need to write more about it.....sorry.........but i need total forgive from God, cuz what i did wasnt very smart of me, thinking that it'll do me good cuz i've been stressed out lately......mainly with work and seriously i'm actually considering quitting there and going back to my old job, seriously if i dont get off weekends atleast once a month, then i'm leaving......maybe i will go back, i loved it there....maybe, i'll think about that one.....umm.........


I hate the starting of Spring cuz of my allergies....right now i dont feel great, its so hard for me to sleep, im sneezing so such, coughing, somewhat of a sore throat, and more, i hate it......i love this warm weather though..its great......lol.............

well nothing much is happening except that I'm gonna watch Jason and Jenny's pets, that'll be loads of fun right there....and Jason no need to pay dan and i for watching ur pets, we do it out of love, cuz u and Jenny are just so freakin awesome, trust me......lol......but if u both pay us, well then, i dont know what i'll do, lol......

well goodnight all,

and said to Jesus, "Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?" They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him. But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, "If any one of you is with out sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground."------John 4-8

the ragamuffin gospel and today

Well, i am reading The Ragamuffin Gospel and so far i enjoy it very much.....since i have my own copy of it, i underline certain points in the book...which is good for me, that way i can go back and look what i underlined and its easier for me to understand, i think anyways.......in the first chapter i found a few things that was really interesting, such as...........
-"The institutional church has become a wounder of the healers rather than a healer of the wounders."
-"Too many Christians are living in the house of fear and not in the house of love."
-Psalm 123, "As the eyes of the servant are on the hands of his master, as the eyes of a maid are on the hands of her mistress," we experince a vague sense of existential guilt. Our eyes are NOT on God. We believe that we can pull ourselves up by out bootstraps-indeed, we can do it ourselves.-----------we can do it but we cant pull ourselves up all of the way without God's help.
-"Sooner or later we are confronted with the painful truth of our inadequacy and insufficiency. Our sercurity is shattered and our bootstraps are cut."
-"We discover our inability to add even a single inch to our spiritual staure."
Theres so much more to this but its too much to write. Chapter One was good but every chapter, i think, is getting better......

This afternoon i was at the church shooting basketball for like 3 hours or so cuz i didnt work today, i was outside all day, the weather was awesome, since i was outside all day i got sun burn on my arms and a little on my face, yea thats odd, lol.....then i came home a washed my car and then i washed my papa's truck.....i wasnt feeling well at all today, woke up with a sore throat, it hurts for me to swollow right now, stuffy nose and my ears needed to pop this morning when i woke up, it wasnt good at all.

I'm gonna donate blood on thursday at the church, this will be my second time this year and my third time giving blood, once last year and this year was in Feburary. I excited. I love helping out any way possible and its good to donate blood cuz it takes all of ur "old" blood, that way ur heart can produce "clean" blood. It feels great afterwards, well i think anyways.

tomorrows gonna be another nice day, cant wait!!

wow what a day

well it all started saturday night when we had to change the clocks ahead an hour which means we lose an hour of sleep which i need that hour, since i had to get up and be at work at 630 in the morning and on top of that the roads pretty much flooded.........i was thinking, whoever came up with the spring ahead and fall back deals with the clocks, i hate it.....lol.........i like it when we gain an hour of sleep, not lose it, lol..............well i get to work a half hour early, so i decided to sleep for a little bit......after i got off at 230pm it all just went down hill..........i go out of the parking lot and had my window down and i hear something that DOES NOT sound normal, so i look over to my mirror and see my cars backend is lower then the rest of the car..............yup.............thats right i got a freakin flat tire........not good at all, cuz i didnt have my cell with me and i was looking for some kind of building that would have a phone that i can use...........and it was gettin cold and raining a little bit also......i was walking all over creation to find a building and all that was around me was apartments and homes for the elderly people......i was starting to get worried that i couldnt find a place......so i walked a different way and see that theres a door thats open, so i go over there and asks "wheres a phone that i can use?" an the man said and pointed to the phone, "right here", i finally got a hold of my grandparents and they came to bring a jack and the rest was up to me.....my grandpa told me what to do......i changed my first flat tire and hopefully my last, thats not true.....so if you need a tire change call me, lol.........thats if you dont know how........lol...........so in the end i didnt get home till about maybe 400 or 430pm and it took me about an hour or so to find a phone, lol.......sad but true..........

the place that i went to use the phone was needless to say a woodworking shop.... lol.....some of the older men go up there to build different types of chairs and just about anything, so as i was waiting for my g-rents i was up there talking to the 2 guys that were there and the one guy showed some of the things that he made, lets just say it was amazing...............when i got off the phone with my g-rents, the guy told me to stay inside there, i told him i had go and see if i had a spare tire and i did, hes like i want you to come back here cuz its getting cold out there.....he was so nice to me, i love the older people......some of them actually care and look out for the younger adults such as me.....he was so nice and then the other guy gave me a ride to my car. that was very nice of him......but my day wasnt the greatest day, i hate working sundays....i just hate it.....

im reading The Ragamuffin Gospel, very good book, im gonna have to find another book to read after im done with this one........i'll put some notes out of it and onto my site soon, maybe tomorrow cuz i dont work..........so that is my worst day in a long time......lol.......

can it get any worse??? goodnight all.....very tired now since i wrote this long blog, lol......so goodnight all.....

Overflow concert

Yesterday after my class at the high school, I left and had nothing to cause I didn't work at all. So I went to Barnes and Nobles and looked at CD's, books and magazines. Then I went to the church and shot some basketball cuz once again I was bored....I was there maybe for an hour or so cuz my grandparents don't have a basketball net so I have to go and find some place to shot......I went home and got something to eat and what not.....

Last night was the Overflow concert, it was very good.....there were so many people there, it was awesome......I think it was better than the 15 year anniversary CD we did live at another church cuz at the time we didn't have enough room for everyone.......then when that was over, I was talking to a few people.....I was sitting down front but not in the very front, lol, by myself cues I didn't know who was all coming, but all was well........I guess..........then Jenny comes up to Dan and I and asks what are we doing tonight? and we're like nothing, so she invited us over to their house with other leaders such as Sean and Megan, Duff and Miranda, Courtney, Ryan(not Holmesy), PJ and his gf........it was very exciting......we sat around ate pizza and Jason asks everyone what they thought of the concert and if we enjoyed, well like 2 or 3 people answer and didn't sound enthusiastic about it, he's like great sounds like everyone liked, something along that line, but it was just funny how no one answered him, lol......there was this old man with this one hat and almost looked like the Pope, he was so adorable, though.....

then played Apples to Apples(I think that's what it was called, not sure) I never heard of it nor played it before, it was a great game.......I got three green cards, no I didn't win but I did amazing considering it was my first time playing it......we let rocky up cuz he was in the basement and Samson attacks him like usual and then jenny would ask Samson if he wanted a treat and he would perk up, so she gave it to him and he went crazy, running around and everything, lol, he's such a crazy dog.....


I gotta go, tty all later and I'll finish later cuz I gotta get something to eat for breakfast before work, work at 10:00am till 5pm, so that means I'm gonna go to the service tonight for once in like 3 freakin weeks, lol later

overflow concert

Yesterday after my class at the high school, i left and had nothing to cause i didnt woek at all. So i went to Barnes and Nobles and looked at CDs, books and magazines. Then i went to the church and shot some basketball cuz once again i was bored....i was there maybe for an hour or so cuz my grandparents dont have a basketball net so i have to go and find some place to shot......i went home and got something to eat and what not.....

Last night was the Overflow concert, it was very good.....there were so many people there, it was awesome......i think it was better than the 15 year anniversity cd we did live at another church cuz at the time we didnt have enough room for everyone.......then when that was over, i was talking to a few people.....i was sitting down front but not in the very front, lol, by myself cuz i didnt know who was all coming, but all was well........i guess..........then Jenny comes up to Dan and i and asks what are we doing tonight? and we're like nothing, so she invited us over to their house with other leaders such as Sean and Megan, Duff and Miranda, Courtney, Ryan(not Holmesy), PJ and his gf........it was very exciting......we sat around ate pizza, then played Apples to Apples(i think thats what it was called, not sure) i never heard of it nor played it before, it was a great game.......i got three green cards, no i didnt win but i did amazing considering it was my first time playing it.......


i gotta go, tty all later and i'll finish later cuz i gotta get something to eat for breakfast before work, work at 10:00am till 5pm, so that means im gonna go to the service tonight for once in like 3 freakin weeks, lol later

last night was great

yesterday i had to work, which wasnt too bad.....but before work i had to go and take care of the Mitchells "kids" and then after work i went back over there and just hung out there till they came home.....i did go running with Samson after i got home and took him along with me for a short trip to TH(turkey hill)....dan came over then after she was done with work and then there was nothing on tv besides the basketball tournament, but i got bored/tired of watching it....so they got home at a decent time and jason comes in and says something about the games and at the time i was watching Napolean Dynamite and he wanted to checkout the game so i let him watch the game......

I also stuck this bandana on Samson and jason comes in and sees it him and hes like take that off, lol.....i just laughed, but he did look awesome in it, i dont know what jase was talkin about, lol.......i also got to meet Jon and Karen last night, Jon is Jasons brother and jason asks me a question, "do we talk alike?", im "like yea!!" and jons like she just met me 2 seconds ago, lol.....and then jon asks dan and i a question also, something along this line, "how does jason do as a leader?" dans like "great!" and im like "i dont wanna comment cuz hes here, jk, hes does an awesome job." lol then we watched some of the basketball tournament till like 1000pm and then dan i left so they all could go to bed........i was at my car and saw Samson looking out the front window as dan and i left their house, it was so adorable cuz he knew we were leaving for good till jason and jenny leave again for a trip, dont know when that'll be, but samson loves when dan and i are there and just play with him and torture Rocky but he still loves me even though i torture him....by the way Rocky doesnt like Dan, lol.....that was funny last night as she was trying to hold him, Jenny was showing her how to hold him, lol.....just an awesome night last night......


not going to be able to go to either service at church once again cuz i work sat. 3-7 and sunday 630-230pm, anyone wanna do anything let me know and im finally gonna pay my cell phone bill and thats means i get my phone back, yessssss!!!!!

Tragic endings

well i decided to write about two things that have been on the news quite a bit, The Schiavo Case and the Minnesota school shooting......

I've been watching the news lately and there are 2 things that have really made me think:
1) The Schiavo Case.........where her husband wants his wife to die, so he can go find another woman and therefore doesnt have to look after his wife, Terri. I was reading more about it on the WGAL channel website and here is something that her parents lawyer said,
"A lawyer for Schiavo's parents told a federal judge that forcing Schiavo to die by starvation and dehydration would be "a mortal sin" under her Roman Catholic beliefs." Also here is what a woman said that was standing outside of the hospice,
"A woman outside Schiavo's Florida hospice called the judge’s decision "terrible." In the woman's words, "They're going to talk and talk and she's going to die."

I've asked myself a question, "if I were her and in that condition, would i want to be kept alive?" They already took out her feeding tube and on the verge of dying any day, they said that she can live about a week to 2 weeks without food and water and the feeding tube was the only thing that was keeping her alive. Her family is trying to get the feeding tube reinserted.
If I were her, I wouldnt want to be kept alive, to be honest. I mean she cant even move alot, she cant talk, and she cant even feed herself.
If you were her what would you want done, would you want to be kept alive or have the tube removed and die from starvation and dehydration??

And the 2nd thing was the school shooting in Minnesota......I've also thought about the shooting that went on in Minnesota. Why would a teenager go to school and shot 5 of his classmates, his grandfather, a security guard, a teacher, and then take his own life?? He also injured about 14 other people and he was laughing while he was shooting them. The part that hit me was when he asked a boy if he believed in God and then shot him. If you were asked that question, "if you believed in God" and had a gun pointed at your head, what would you say?? would you say no just so that you can stay alive or would you say yes and then die cause that student hated Christians??? I would say yes and i wouldnt be afraid cuz its true....what would you say???

well everyone have a wonderful night and have a great day tomorrow

the rafamuffin gospel

i bought this book called The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning....i just started reading it today...but i didnt get to far, lol......i kept gettin interupeted for some odd reason.....whats been going on in my life??? well nothing to much, just workin....no more church/yg for ash(me), well i'll be at yg after work and i dont get off till 7pm sometimes, kind of disappointed with my supervisor, i was just really down all day today cuz i cant come to any of the services.....i just felt like breaking down and crying, cuz hes like "well you'll be workin weekends forever now!!" im so excited!! ::sarcasim:: but enough with work, cuz i dont want to think about it.....
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i'll post some thoughts of the book sometime tomorrow cuz i have nothing planned...dont work till thursday....well good night all....

tired

Well i have to get up every day till june for one class that failed last year, my senior year, anyways i went to bed at a decent time, okay 11 or 1130pm.....i get some mornings to get a shower, well i didnt have my alarm up loud enough for me to hear, so my grandma came in and woke mee up and asked if i was going to my class and shes like its 630am and i normally leave around 700am, i jump out of bed and hurry to get ready......its gonna be a bad day, just by the way i didnt get up in the morning......

i have off of work today and def. not looking forward to this weekend where im gonna miss church cuz i have to be at by 630 in the freakin morning on sunday...lol......but i only work till 230pm, so thats not bad.....i guess........this is probably the longest post that have written on here, so im done writing.............

nothing much happened

well nothing much happened today....i worked today 11 till 7 and my "blue beast" had problems once again.....thats all

hey

well this is other blog site, so therefore i dont know what to write....cya