Thats how i feel right now, is GRRRR!! I'm so angry at someone at this moment. I feel like either taking a whole bunch of pills (that I don't have), or jumping off a bridge (theres none near where i live), or doing something else. The person got angry at me for the littlest thing the other day and she's STILL mad at me today. I don't get it, people don't appreciate what i do for them, they just take advantage of you and I'm just fed up with everyone!! WHY? WHY ME? I do not understand, seriously. I wish i could move out of PA and just get away from a few people.
I'M TIRED OF BEING LIED TO!
I'M TIRED OF PEOPLE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ME!
I'M TIRED OF ALL THE DRAMA!
I wish a had a true family to fall back onto, but i don't and just realized it now. I watched a video of my mom's car crash that she was involved with years ago, before she got really sick. I watched and i heard her voice and i was hoping that i was going to see her in the video and I DID! I realize how much i really do miss her being in my life. I was thinking if she were here maybe i would have a family to fall back onto. Sometimes i wish and wonder "why couldn't I have the cancer instead of her?" Why DID God take her away from me? I guess I still miss her. Why can't i just get over her and move on? I can't, thats the problem. No one understands me.
I've also been thinking about getting a tattoo. I'm not 100% sure on it yet, but thats been on my mind for a little while now. I want to see if my one friend will get one with me. I would love to fly down to Miami to get it by the people on the show called Miami Ink. I love that show! I want a heart and a rose with my mom's name and the date that she passed away. I'm not sure exactly what i want but thats a rough idea. I'm open for suggestions!
I visit this place quite a bit. I just go up on the hill where she's at and just talk to her or i just sit there. This is the most relaxing place i know of right now.
I wish i had someone to talk to. I'm strugging here. I feel like a failure. "was i created by accident?"
6 comments:
You do have someone to talk to.Sorry I did'nt check your blog sooner.get back to me if you still need to talk.
who is this by the way?
to answer ur question, i havent talked to anyone yet. I'd get back to you but i dont know if you'll ever check my blog and i dont even know who left the comment, lol.
My name is Chris.Check Jasons blog. 8th grade J-crew Leader.7176820238.A burden shared is a burden halved.
ahh ok, i know who u are now, lol. once u told me ur name i knew who u were. i think u commented one other rime on my blog a while back.
Ok then... Your last lines on your last blog caught my eye,and I'm concerned for everyone,especially brothers & sisters in Christ.Just reaching out to ya.
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