Addicted

Did you ever become addicted to certain things in life?? Well I have. In the past several months I probably have done a few things that I shouldn't do and yea I totally regret doing them. What I love so much about my one supervisor, Paul, is that he can tell when I'm depressed and when I look it he calls me into the office and has me talk to him about whatever it is. One day last week was one of the days that he called me in, so he's like whets up? and my answer was nothing. Later in the conversation he asks me if I feel bad about doing the two things that I'm addicted to before or after any church thing and I'm like "honestly I am, I truly am." I mean going to the church and doing what I do every Sunday and Wednesday for the students and the worship & arts team, I feel like I should just leave and take a break from everything, but I'm afraid to do that only because it could get worst than it already is, but on the other hand I feel as though I should be there because I'm totally sinning and doing something that could hurt me in the end.

This is something that has been killing me because I cant live my life like this. If these things are the only thing that makes me happy and makes me have a smile on my face then I guess there's something wrong.

I don't know, I think I'm just confused right now. I haven't talked to my dad in weeks maybe months, found out that my grandpa had a tumor in his ear, work is stressing me out and I think its because of the heat, the kitchen is obviously the hottest place to work in the summer. The heat gets to you by 2pm.

well thats it till maybe next week.