Thinking

This week has been kinda stressful for and yet i only work mon thru fri 9-5....Friday i just wanted to find a place to crawl up in and just cry. My one supervisor could tell and he's not afraid to come up to me and say "Evil(thats my nickname at work, its a joke and the story on how i got that name is for another day) you look unhappy/frustrated, talk to me." and he'll actually listen and give me advice. When a supervisor sits and listens to you talk thats awesome. I told him that i was and the reason why and he totally can see why im so unhappy right now at work. I love him so much. He's the most understanding supervisor that i've ever had.

Well enough of that.

39 days til i turn 21!!! not counting tonight bc its almost over.

6 months til CA!!! thats too long

I was over at Jason and Jennys house for a little bit this afternoon, Jason left to go do something which took a few minutes and Jenny and i were having different comversations and then she asked me if i ever go over to his house to see him and i was honest and said no. I would love to hang out with my dad more but everytime i call their house i always get this one girl and shes so stinkin' rude to me. Its like i cant even call to see if Dan's there or my dad. I dont get, I never did a single thing to her. Like the other night, I was trying to get a hold of Dan by calling her cell seriously like 10 times and no one answered. So the last resort was to call the house and that girl anwsered, First off i asked her if Dan was there(there was a pause for a minute or two) shes like why dont you call her cell? i tried like 10 times and no one answered(then there was another pause) and she comes back saying "Yea she is", i was like "um can i talk to her please(once again another pause)" "yea i guess."

Its like they dont want Dan and I to talk to each other or something. We're sisters, We're twins!!! lol Some days i feel like my dad doesnt want anything to do with me, but i sit and think that I have friends at church that are like family to me. I have this one Junior highers mom that i call "mom." She's so easy to talk to about anything. She gives me a hug everytime she sees me on Sundays. i just love her so much and she has a daughter thats just so amazing.

theres this one song thats by Simple Plan, its called Welcome to My Life
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

thats one of my many favorite songs right now.

i was thinking about somthing and now iforget because i was going to post it on here, but i totally forget, im such a loser....well on that note...im going to bed....night

Loving the baby room Jase!! lovin' it....very impressed that you did some work this afternoon,lol JK!!!