My nerves are shot right now.
So here's a situation that happened after Brock's football practice:
Destyni wanted to stay and watch the Jr high football game and i told her no bc her brother was staying and the girls(cousins) were at home. She said that they were annoying but yet she wanted to sleep over this weekend!! LOL crazy. She's talking to her mom on my cell and screaming at her, remember she's 6, so i told her she had 2 options 1 go home or 2 go to her cousins house and at this time she's screaming at me and i grab her arm and I ALMOST slapped her bc her mom does! But i didn't. That's when i realized that i WANT to move home!!
I don't have a life anymore and I'm trying to find God in all of this. I just feel like I'm falling away from Him right now. I don't know what to do anymore. I mean when i get mad at the kids i push the shed outside that way they don't see me, I've done it once bc i didn't know what to do. The 2 kids were fighting and i was yelling at the top of my lungs and they still didn't listen.
I think the only kid that will miss me is Austen!! He's a little brother that i wished that i had, even tho he's autistic, that doesn't matter to me, he's a great kid!! Kids with a disorder are still kids and should be treated the same way as other kids. He gets picked on all the time at school bc he's smarter than the rest of the class!! But his cousin is in his grade and he hear some students picking on him and his cousin went up to them and told them to stop it and they did bc he's a football player!!
So I'm going to try to find God in the midst of this crazy thing called LIFE!!!
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